Hi Amber. I hope you find this post with a smile on your face. I want you to know how important you have been in my life. You have played the greatest role in helping me to feel full - full of life, full of love, and fulfilled. I feel well again/for the first time. Today, I signed a new lease for a 1 bedroom spot in Grapevine. My subconscious mind wrote the word, “Grave,” just now on my keyboard…I wonder if that means anything.

I still feel love for you, Am. Even though we have to go our separate ways right now, my path keeps swerving back and forth toward you and away from you like a magnet pendulum.

Also, I want you to know that I feel happy right now. I am trying to come clean, even on my way to ditching the meds, no longer feeling that I am depressed. I attended a meditation group last week, and I have been reading the Bhagavad-Gita and Be Here Now - by Ram Dass. I am probably going to rock Krishna Das at MoveStudio (Preston/Cambell in North Dallas) ecstatic dance on Sunday, July 27, 2008 and Thursday, August 21. Plus, I found out that Mati is facilitating at a kewl-sounding place called “Cosmic Cup Cafe” somewhere near downtown tomorrow - July 20 (Jordan’s Birthday) and consecutive Sun Days at 10:00 a.m. sharp, and I’ll be there for that.

I think I will keep adding notes on this post, and keep writing you in this fashion. I think it’s healthy for me to spend time thinking about you - you are a lightning bolt in my mind, charging energy througy me. Peace and Cues,

Mud Pud In Training

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